Confusion of feelings... Hmm... Sounds chim to me... haha... But seriously, I'm in that dilenma now... Haiz... Why... Why... Why...???? Lols... I seriously don't know... I haven manage to figure that out yet... Can anybody please tell me why... haiz... Somehow... Its quite hurting... In a way... Hmm

My New Song

Recently,I've wrote a song. A song that somehow represents me. And to certain people too.

That's What Friends Are For

And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you
And if I should ever go away
Well, then close your eyes and try to feel
The way we do today
And then if you can remember
Keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for
Well, you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you
Whoa, and then for the times when we're apart
Well, then close your eyes and know
These words are comin' from my heart
And then if you can remember, oh
Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
In good times, in bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
Oh, that's what friends are for
Whoa... oh... oh... keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are forFor good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for
Keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, oh, for sure
'Cause I tell you that's what friends are for
For good times and for bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for
(That's what friends are for)
On me, for sure
That's what friends are for
Keep smilin', keep shinin'

MISA!!!!!!!

All tis tym i loved her as my best fren n sister, i hv bn lying 2 myself. All tis tym, im actually head over heals in love with her. The flower tat i had adored so dearly is going 2 b taken by a bee. As her bestfren n brother,i wud hv indeed feel very happy. Bt nw i felt as though i was thrust into an endless pit of darkness. My heart's crushed. I felt cnfused, unknowing of wat 2 do nxt. Shud i rejoice 4 her or fight 4 her. I loved her so much tat i dun think i cud lose her tat easily. Bt the odds r on me n the cards on my hands r useless. 'Tatakau'. Tats wat Setsuna F. Seiei said 2 Saji Crossroad when Louise Harlevy join A-Laws. 'Tatakau' means fight. 'Tasukata' n 'Mamoru tame ni'. Save n protect. Shud i do tis or tat? Argh!!! Wakaranai daioh! I dunno wat 2 do. Im afraid of losing u bt i cnt fight 4 u. MISA! MISA HAYASE! BOKU NO ANATA WA AISHITERUN DAIOH! HONTOU AISHITERUN DAIOH! MISA MISA MISA!!! NIGERU JANAI! MMMMIIIISSSSAAA!!!!

A Long Goodbye or A Fight to the End

There are things that you have to let go and things you have to fight for. There are times where you have to make a difficult choice in life, risking everything with your heart asking you, 'are you doing the right thing?'. Here I am, in the centre of my world, trying to decide to say goodbye or fight. Sayonara or Tatakau. Hmmm

The unsetting sun rises endlessly; can't you make the stuff about "dreams are dreams" end?"
Please don't throw it away so easily"; in your hands that began to open the bud that has started to bloom, there's a..."secret paradise"
A straight rail and a treacherous route; whether you'll go or not, it's all of yourselfI'm already fed up with counting on my fingers inside the cage
Respect! Boys,
Show me your bluffs, even if you're clumsy, sketch the map and let's walk without stopping
The unsetting sun turns impossibleness into the possible, and doesn't talk about dreamlike stories
"Please don't bury it alive"; your desire is germinating; lurking in the depths of the sprout is a..."secret paradise"
A good-feeling beat and a rusted rhythm; whether you'll let them live or kill them, it's all your freedom
I'm already fed up with licking clean the candy that I got
Respect! Girls, guard your fears; we don't need faked laughs anymore, so let's laugh without being poisonedIf the unsetting sun can be more like you, then turn imprisonment into freedom and overcome common sense
"Please want to believe in yourself"; you have gotten lost on paths, but hiding in your chest is a..."secret paradise"
"For how long will you have endless dreams?"
To what point are you allowed...?young voice never give up; more and more than what God thinks, miracles will continue, right...?

Meikyuu No Prisoner

A wandering prisoner is drawn to something.
A flash of a beam of light runs by and broke the silence.
The limit has been told.
The fate blends Moebius's ring.
No one knows such things as the exit.
Shine the light on me, beyond the darkness.
Believe in the radiance called love.
Time is just now.
Messiah embrace everyone's wish.
We will run to the future.
If my wish can come true I want tell someone.
That I'll be there (I'll be there) I'm here.
The numerous events entertwined and we've lost a way to escape.
The Black Hole was planned.
The link of the maze was sucked up by fate.
Now, even a light cannot be seen.
Only with our love deep in our heart.
Hug the reality called love.
Over the truth.
Messiah run through like a hurricane.
We will aim for the future.
And give hope to the person we love.
I'll be there (I'll be there).
I will go there.
A wandering prisoner is drawn to something.
Messiah embrace everyone's wish.
We will run to the future.
If my wish can come true.
I want tell someone.
That I'll be there (I'll be there) I'm here

We can never expect how things turn up til we try. I agree with those too. But its sad that some people just won't understand the changes they're facing. It's like almost as if they didn't wanna care about what they facing until the last minute when they realise that it's somehow too late for them to accept it. Mayb I was 1 of them. I can't realli decide that.


Life's been good in school. Man it's great to be back to school. I miss sch and my bestest best friends there. Ryan, Max, Vishal, Siti, Dong Hoon, Koon Yong and some others too. Of course not to forget my dearest secondary school friends in Temasek Poly. Zaimah, Afiq, Hafiz, Chong Wei and others as well. Funny how time goes by pretty fast. The next thing I know is that I'm a year 2 student. Somehow,I manage to survive my freshman year. Thanks guys for all your help. Now,being a year 2 student,I still feel that we're still in year 1. But it feels good to be called Senpai by some freshmans. Haha...


Til next time then. For those who have been reading my blog,sorry I haven't been able to update. Haha.... Matta Aimasho Minna-san!!!!!

Cruel Angel's Thesis (A.D. 2001)

Like a cruel angel
Young man, become a legend
Even if the blue wind knocks on the door of your chest now
You’re still looking only at me and smiling
Absorbed in yearning for things that you gently touch
Your childish eyes still don’t even know destiny
But will you notice someday?
That on your back
There are wings for aiming for the faraway future
A cruel angel’s these will take off from the windowsill before long
On a surging, hot pathos, if you betray your memories
Embracing this universe and shining
Young man, become a legend
You’re forever sleeping in my cradle of love
Only you are the coming morning called upon by the messenger of dreams
The moonlight is reflecting your slender nape
You want to stop all the time in the world and shut them in, but-
If there’s a meaning in the fact that we were able meet
Then that’s right, it’s the bible for me to know freedom
In a cruel angel’s these, the sadness will then start
The shape of the life that you embraced is the moment when you woke from your dream
Shining more light than anyone else
Young man, become a legend
While people weave love, they create history
I still can’t become a god, yet I’ll live
A cruel angel’s these will take off from the windowsill before long
On a surging, hot pathos, if you betray your memories
Embracing this universe and shining
Young man, become a legend

Dynamite Expolsion

Once I start singing the beat rocks my thoughts
Misplaced some time, some place, for some reason
Here I say goodbye to lukewarm everyday
None can stop my passionate thoughts
Dynamite
Dynamite
Dynamite explosion once again
Dynamite
Dynamite
Everyday every night everywhere
It's an endless journey I wanna feel the moment
While looking forward to a stronger fiercer heart
If the reason to keep running be not on this earth
Let's fly even to the ends of the faraway
If you believeyou can reach it
Once I start singing the dream is no longer a vision
I want to make sure of it, some time, some place
I don't care what's there in the place we're headed
Now is the moment of my journey

Men Of Destiny

Eyes growing pale, staring at a flame
The time has come to resign all you had
Rights to remember, rights to grieve
All denied, we fight on and on
Even if all our lives burn out today
Even then, do humans dream for tomorrow
Even if it be our fate
I WANNA GET A CHANCE
In the sky of despair, storm blows savagely
For whom the future exists
Collapsing is the world, storm blowing through it
The chosen ones
MEN OF DESTINY
If one holds in heart what to believe in
Even for it, one can live on
What arms soaked in blood are holding tight
Is the empty phantom of "victory"
Even if all there is falls down today
Even then, do humans long for a dream
If it be our fate
I WANNA GET A CHANCE
Before you ascend to the sky again
Show me what is in your heart
What floats upon your silhouette looking back
Is a lonely smile,
I shall never remove
Into the shimmering air
FLASHING BACK
Never to return,
DREAMIN' DAYS
Crying without a voice to cry,
The distant memory
I WANNA GET YOUR LOVE

My Soul For You

If you become the wind,
I want to become the endless sky
When you're petrified by the sound of the violent rain
Strumming my guitar,
I'll calm your heart
Come on people, I want you to feel it
Because it's all right if you don't understand right now
Come on people, I'll go on protecting you
With my life
My soul for you
If you lose your way,
I'll light the darkness with my smile
If it would heal your sadness
I'd sing until my voice withered away
Come on people, I want you to believe it
I'll never change
Come on people, like the sun
I'll shine on you
My soul for you

Do You Remember Love?

Right now, I hear your voice
Saying "Come here to me."
Just when it seemed loneliness had beaten me.
Right now, I see you
Walking over to me.
I close my eyes and wait for you to come.
Till yesterday, it seemed filled only with tears.
But now my heart is
Do you remember the time when our eyes first met?
Do you remember the time when our hands first touched?
That was the very first time I set out on the journey of love.
I love you so.
Right now, I can feel your gaze
Though you're not here with me.
And in my body a warmth begins to glow.
Right now, I believe in your love
So won't you please
Watch over me from so far away?
Till yesterday it seemed filled only with tears.
Now the world is...
I'm not alone anymore
Now that you're here with me.

Missing you

I kinda miss someone. Someone from far. Someone important to me. Someone whom I cherish since I was young. I wanna meet her. I really wanna see her badly. I miss her so much that I wish I could meet her now at wherever she is. God knows what my feelings now. All I know that it's not love. It's a long lost friendship. I really hope we can finally meet someday soon. Hopefully sooner.

Finally,after a long wait,my friend had gone for his NS at Pulau Tekong. It was a sad feeling but i know that some day,it'll be turn to go too. Time has sure gone by pretty fast. I will never know when will my turn be.

Sometimes,when i think about death,i will feel that its like a simple thing. As I grow,I had learn that its a great process when i would have to lose my life and see my loved ones for the last time. I felt the hurt imagining myself die while the people around shed their tears and grief to see that I'm gone.

Love. I really have no idea why I had to fall in love easily. Especially to that girl. She's been on my mind almost every day. Its like she has become my strength. I don't know why. I must not do that or think about it. Though it has given me strength,I will be weaken without her. I will just admire her from far. I must do that before it's too late.

She was different. She is pretty to me, that's for sure bt she has really blossom a lot. She has become more radiant than before. I love the way she look now. My oh my. Loving a girl is really complicated. Haha.

Personally, I hate wars. I don't know why must there be a war. War isn't about being a hero and power is a double-edged sword that kills the enemy as well as its owner. People can't make excuses saying that wars are created because of power. Those are just bullshits. Why can't we just come to terms? We're not that different. People lived for and kill for revenge. Will that brings us closer to peace? I rather not think so.

The Start Of Life

Life can be very difficult sometimes. Filled with pain. But there are actually beauty in life too. Love is definitely 1 of them. I could say that I'm actually in love with someone. Not many know who. Though she's just an average girl, something about her that amaze and fascinates me. A person who is in love will know what I'm feeling. I hope one day she knows.